I will try hard to…
Say ‘No’ to others
Not get involved in other peoples or ‘the worlds’ dilemmas and situations
I will be the watcher
I will let it happen at a distance
I will continue to construct ‘my’ very own safe space!
I feel better when I can
So here’s the plan…
I will try hard to…”
Start a new Chapter.
I will accept what has happened
I will not waste precious life energy worrying, predicting the ‘now’
Or putting right the past!
I will not think, say
I am stupid, worthless, mad, a loony or not worthy of others medical time and support-or even a nuisance!
I feel better when I can
So here’s the plan…
I Will try hard to…”
Bring complete attention, acceptance and trust to the present experience,
Be accepting of how it is now, on a moment-to-moment basis
BUT this is not always easy in my world
I can’t always agree to this!
I WILL feel better when I can
Gather up my shattered, scattered dreams
I will put together a life I truly love!
I will not feel guilty but continue to learn how to be kind to myself.
This is a much better use of my time and breath…
Sometimes the smallest step in the right direction,
Even a tip toe if it helps,
Will end up being the
BIGGEST, MOST HONEST and IMPORTANT
Step of your life…
But take that step!!
I did!
So here’s my plan…
If I hadn’t taken that tiny step or chosen to ‘tell all’, trust a very dedicated professional and very special individual…
A person I have been able to cry buckets in front of
Told things I am not proud of
BUT learned to laugh a lot along the way with to J
Someone who knew how to nurture and re programme me
Even if has taken ‘ANOTHER’ week longer
When I say ‘how’ again!!!!! Or what’s the plan..?
He has given me the tools and tool box to go it alone,
If I hadn’t had access to him then you wouldn’t be reading this now,
The start of my fourth chance at LIFE!
I will stand again
I feel better when I can